thoughts

"what was the reason that you hurt yourself? To cut yourself, to burn yourselfu, etc.?"

06.09.2005 18:23
I always try to hesitate the desire tillI can't avoid it anymore...
and this are moments where everything's going wrong and nothing works anymore, all coincide like a house of cards. und where withdraw closeness to me at moments where I especially need it most.
then I just want feel that I'm alive or that I can feel anything, that my body shows any reaction...
There are times where such moments are not that frequent and not that acute and diversion reachs for a while but lately moments occur increasingly where nothing works...